I need a break.

I'm always on break. But I need a long needed break. I just want a break.
Already 3x's I said break in the sentence there.
Shows how much I need this break. Much needed.

Maybe I'm not meant to study, I just can't man.
There's nothing interest me as much as sitting down doing nothing.
Shitzzz. Ok maybe not, but I dislike what I'm going through.
There's literally no point in studying what I'm studying.
Regret max. But I shan't waste my parent's money and give up half way, no?

Just...I know I'm not doing the best.
I need a miracle. Can someone enlighten me?
Like truly enlighten me, not with words only?
Aside that, I can't wait for November :)
I just can't freaking get over the exam and this month!
I just wanna do what I like! Which is NEVER studying. lol.

I want to grab a book and read, without any distraction. (trying)
I want to just sit and lay without worries when got quiz, assignments, blah.
I just want to cook! I'm so interested after going through many blogs.
I just want to walk around my neighborhood and just chill.
I just want to get fit, take some pictures, be inspire all the time!
I just want a freaking break.

They say, suffer now, and you won't suffer later.
Nuff said, so true but that meant not doing what I like.
More like, I'm just sooooooooooo not liking doing anything now.

How?


Alicia

Anonymous Bastard.

I don't know to cry or stab myself now, when I vowed not to take petty things seriously. But in this matter I CAN'T! Because some bitch who is anonymous spoils my day. That bloody son of a bitch! Sorry for being offensive but after all is MY BLOG right? I can rant all I want right?! UGH! Long story cut short, some anonymous stupid driver broke my side mirror. SCREW YOU BITCH/BASTARD! But I shall not let minority matters screw me. KARMA will decide, I believe so. Thanks little driver, it just proved yourself how bloody fool you are. I admit for parking illegally at the side of the road, but you have no rights to BREAK MY MIRROR. For now, where my anger water boils, I see no forgiveness whether its accidental or not. LOL. But I'm so frust now! Firstly because it's not legally my car. Secondly, obviously my dad has to pay it, (again, previously for saman fees)

This is irrelevant, MY BLOODY KYBOARD LETTR 'E' JUST CAME OFF. BLOODY FUCK. SWEAR IT WAS NOT ME. I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO COMPLAIN TO MY DAD CAUSE IT'S NEW. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH. FUCK.

Alicia

Controlling By Killing.

This is superbly random but I just had to voice it out.
I don't know bout this Thing where they have a campaign for killing crows. It's damn sad everytime I hear the gun shots. You mean you can just kill off a population because there are too many of them? Ok maybe crows aren't as cute as other animals or what sort but I don't think anyone should just control it by killing them. It's just saddening okay. I don't see people complaining bout having too much money eventhough greed is by far more serious than any other problem bout having too many crows.lol. I don't know, maybe I'm just in a bitchy mood cause I lack of sleep from working. And I keep my frustrations from work and it's killing me.

Alicia

Red Nose.

Wooo!!!

Ate like a piggy today, but just a simple day indeed.
I'm still tired from lack of sleep boohoo.
Must MUST sleep early today as my skin is beginning to turn worse!

Internet & Facebook has DEFINITELY dominated humans.

Red-nosed-clown is back. boohoohoo.

Alicia

I don't care.

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Alicia

So what ?

I FEEL FREAKING FAT ALREADY .

SO SHUT UP !

NEED TO IMPROVE MY STUDIES FIRST OK ?

AHHH ! I COULD RIP A HEAD NOW !

EVERYTHING'S AFTER FORM 5 ... WTF ?

WTF ??

What ?

Feeling VERY CRANKY !

Firstly , dad say I could share the cam but wth ?
Now he says NO . WTF ? What does it exactly mean ?

I'm feeling very empty . Not being emo or something .
Just ... empty .

I'm so tired but I can't sleep . I'm being serious in this matter .

Everyone seems to be shouting at me today .

I can't DDR anymore ... that makes me feel miserable ...

Some things are just so unfair ...

CRANKY ! I'M SO TIRED !

Shits .

Oh great .
I've tried changing my blog's skin ,
But the fool me didn't save before hand !
I've lost all my links ... great VERY GREAT .

What a crappy day .
I feel crappy too .

A CRAPPY DAY !

Fools !

I still miss you .

Hmmm ,
Things haven't been going well these days .
Just feeling really FRUSTRATED , EMOTIONAL , etc ...
So not me .

I recalled when I was in Form 2-3 ,
Everyone practically calls me an emo person .
Hmmm , I WAS !
But I'm not already , but maybe these days .

Nope , not PMS-ing . Soon I guess ? lols .

I seriously am not feeling good .
I feel so ... worned out by doing nothing .
Any activities for me to do ?
I'm bored home alone .
Even there's no time for a family dinner anymore .
I miss having a family's day out . It's been long .
As my priorities are always my family first .
Maybe it's just me .
I'm even afraid to ask my mum for stuffs anymore .

I miss daddy , I miss mummy , I miss my sister .
I miss having the time together .

I don't know what to do ...

Oh well ~ Nights .

April :)

IU Night has ended pretty well :)

No more skipping classes . That's for sure . No excuses !
I was really blur when teachers were teaching .
Slept in class again . And I nap-ed for like freaking 5 hours ?!

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Shout out to ,

LIM SHIN YEE
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY !
The gorgeous lady turned 17 yesterday .

and nevertheless ,

EUGENE TAN
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY !
He turned 17 too :)

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From my last movie post I've watched at least 2 movies already !
Plus ...

Despite all the comments that the book is better ,
I like it . Well I'm still on hiatus from the book .
Be surprise , be VERY surprise when I finish the book .

I'm in need of lots of dramas/movies ,
I don't mind opening a shop and sell CDs ;) ,
I'm such a couch potato .

My hands are freezing cold as ice ,
my legs are numb from bending to type ,
my face has pimples popping up ,
I'm sleeping pretty late nowadays ,
I'm complaining alright .
And I want to shop badly !!!

LOL !

What will I do ... ?

Why now .

I'm having the flu now .
WTH seriously . One day before my exams ?
Suffered in school ... and today's weather is so bad ...
I really felt no air around me .

And I can't resist youtube-ing .
Off to nap .
But ... how to nap with my nose blocked and sneezing ?

And I'm so sleepy .

AHHH !!!

Whattodonow ...

I'm sooo sleepy ...

Ahhh , I love facebook because it connects me with my family .
My cousins , friends and my aunts too hahaha !
But it's great isn't it ? Since we are all so MODERN now .
Plus most of us has a facebook account right ? Mwahahaha !

And my MORAL project ... Still dragging ...
Tomorrow's the due date and I've yet to start ... -.- ...
Feel super stress for last minute works ... PLUS I HATE ESSAYS !!!
3-4 essays for Sejarah ... ?!

Bye , tuning to MTV now ;)
Shall nap a few minutes too .

Hmmm ...

What the shit ...
Now my computer mouse is siao-ed ...
Totally shit .
Every few seconds it moves every few seconds it stops ...

It's only Thursday and Friday thennn we're free from school !
For only 1 week though .
CNY ~~~ All bright red :D !

Well ...

It's only the first month !
What a great amount of homework and projects .
Totally great for the lazy me .
Seriously ... MY HOMEWORKS AND PROJECTS !
Even kokurikulum is sooo busy ...
I'm so tired ...
And did I mention tired ?
Really tired .

I want to chill . Watching TVs , reading magazines ...
Haven't had the time to even read the magazines I bought .
Yes I have time to blog though :D ! What a great lazy bum am I .
I'm so happy I bought my TVB DVD !
Wars Of In-Laws ! The first one . I LOVE THE SHOW SO MUCH !
Kekeke !
And I'm waiting for the memory card reader ~~~
Pictures are coming SOON ~~~

And my friend , please don't stress yourself in anything .
No matter how busy you are , how frust you are ,
Take care of yourself and calm yourself . You know we love you so much .
We cared so much for you ! Just relax !
Shall buy you lots of earrings too k ? ;)
WE LOVE YOU !
I LOVE YOU !

It's a little ...

Can just skip this post , really frust . Need to release .
Or I'll be cursing more tomorrow .
Just rants for this post .

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Let's call it a day .
It wasn't good it wasn't bad .
But I feel a little mean today . I cursed the most today !
WTH ! I really don't want to curse anymore this year .
I'm a good girl ! *smiles very sweetly*
Okay , seriously lol I really cursed a lot today I felt really bad .
Really want to pull back what I said .

Am not feeling well now . Having the flu now . Wth .
I really don't like FLU'S why is there such virus either ?!
WTH !!! It brought my mood down ...
Even my contacts are bullying me . I have eye irratation now .
It's really bad . Really red , been few days already .

School's HECTIC ! Even a lazy person like me saying this .
WTH OKKK !!! I'm frust because I'M FRUST !
The girls know why I'm frust in the early morning hah !
Stupid reason but it felt good seriously .
But now I'm really tired ... from school .
I guess I need the habit to start doing school stuffs .
And I regret not handing my moral project . SHIT ! HOW ?!

I really can't think well now .
And wtf , I can't download songs and shows ! WTH HAPPENED ?!
FRUSTTT !!!

-Rants end-

(Am not making any sense now)

Nooo ...

Don't think I can online anymore starting tomorrow .
Mum wants my report card like NOW .
Doomed ... SERIOUS SHIT !

Maybe I'll beg her for online-ing on the weekends hahaha .
If she even lets ...
SHIT ...

But I guess it's the best for me .

But I want to download movies , songs ... how ?

Fattie !!!

I'm a fattie .

I know I've said this like a thousand times ?
And people tend to comfort you like a thousand times too .
Yes we all been through it .

The truths hurt .

My relatives says I'm fat .
Sob sob , I thought I was doing fine .

I must exercise already . Or you'll see me with 100 pounds of fats .
As someone said it .
I want to play badminton with the same people we use to play ,
Miss them although they left school already . They probably won't even see this lol .
But I like playing badminton with them . I really miss that days . HEHEHE !

I want to SWIM ! Been ages since I've swim . Really ages .
I want to go to a theme park ! Not Sunway Lagoon please . Been so many times !
I want to play the trampoline ! I REALLY LOVE IT !
It's the best time I've had at the trampoline in UK .
I like how you feel so excited that your hearts pump really good .
It's as if I could still feel the excitement when I wasn't playing it . It's really nice .



I have a big appetite nowadays ...

I need it !

Waiting to go to school now .
Mum says the computer needs to go away ... O.O !
My biggest nightmare and weakness .
MY DOWNLOADS !!!
How can I be away from my computer ... aiks ...
And I always ended up surfing the net . How funny .

I'm still waiting for a memory card reader .
I need pictures !!!
Anyway ... I'm going now . Time for school .

Maybe will not update much ? ...