YEAR 2012 :)

Update : YES! I've finally successfully retrieved this post that I've accidentally! Awesome meee! Don't give up easily! Haha!

Decided I should do a New Year Resolution for the year 2012.

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1. Be healthier, and fitter.

This has always and will be my lifetime goal. I can't emphasize how much I strive to be fitter yet in a healthier way. This is definitely my number 1 on the list. Must at least exercise 2-3 times a week.


2. Be independent.

I WANT TO BE INDEPENDENT! To prepare myself to be a better adult for next year (21 y/o). Agree, no? I definitely want to do more things by myself like grocery, shopping, movie, errands, etc... I totally SUCK at being independent. Living in my own world.


3. Read more books.

This is definitely a way to improve myself and to upgrade myself in a better way. No doubt reading will improve one selves. At least 1 book a month. Not too bad, eh?


4. Earn my own money.

Been slacking for this semester break. HAH! What else could I have done, though I haven't used up my part time job salary. Thus, I need to earn more and get my dream house (lifelong aspiration)!


5. Improve myself.

Clean a little more, be a little less lazier (nobody's perfect thus, there's always a lazy worm in everyone.haha!), maybe get a new hobby or interest?, have yet to decorate my room! I have all these little ideas on how to decorate but am too lazy and lack of creativity. And I need to improve my vocabulary and common sense and etc.

6. Get used to Uni life.

I need to get used to the whole 'I'm in a university' mode. Side note, I must be a university student-like. Or not how am I suppose to graduate? Need to soooooooo get used to the study motion. Need to constantly revise too!


7. Be positive and be grateful.

I think I need a list of things I'm grateful of and I need to think positively. Because, not thinking positively takes you no where. More like, take you down physically and emotionally.

Alicia

Growing Up.

I'm scared, I'm scared of every single shit. But isn't that normal? I can't just please everybody but I just want peace. But people give faces and their true color shows. That just hits me hard. Treating others like gold but in return all you get is a slap. A slap verbally or emotionally straining your trust and kindness. So question is, this society is already screwed, and people screwing each other so how do we live?

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University intake coming, best friends going to a far place and just being hardworking ants, emotionally attached to your work and colleagues, starting to worry about your family, family gatherings which I hope would end nicely, the whole Lim clan is coming back from the UK. All these just makes me fall hard. Where do I belong and what the hell do I want? I, a millionth gazillion times said these already and able to see your face cringes at my whines but that's the fact, for now. I'm losing touch in myself lately too. Can I ever repay my parents and the money they invest for my education? Will I be able to make it? Can I ever EVER see their true happy faces?

I'm losing touch.

Losing my sanity and myself.

Alicia

Someday.

Someday,
I'm gonna make lots of money.
Get a house and make it a dream house of mine :)
ONE DAY.
Somehow.
I wish.

Alicia