What else to say?

I've been wondering,

I always blog when I'm depressed, upset, emo, angry.

What to blog during other times?

Sometimes my mind is so blank like a paper.

I'm easy to read, so... question is,

What else to blog?

Alicia

Forever.

This month is probably one of the hated months.

Not a day i go by without cursing, and i rarely curse (sometimes)

Don't know maybe PMS or i'm depressed, probably depressed.

Life sucks for now.

Lots of thoughts of what's going on currently. Never had i felt so depressed.

Moreover,

In this century, does anything lasts? What do you think? Part of me believe things will last forever if you definitely put your heart to it and believe, but a part of me knows that NOTHING will last, including ourselves. I'm always torn between the yin and yang. If that made sense? hah. But yeah, I know there's always the good and bad but what if things are meant to be just yes or no, good or bad, up or down, left or right. What's left to do? Go all out and dance all night cause I know nothing lasts? or be wise and stay cool and maintain posture? I don't know.

Trust no one but yourself.

What's life to me anyway?

Never had I so badly want to disappear in my life.

More importantly, WHAT IS LIFE?

Alicia

Controlling By Killing.

This is superbly random but I just had to voice it out.
I don't know bout this Thing where they have a campaign for killing crows. It's damn sad everytime I hear the gun shots. You mean you can just kill off a population because there are too many of them? Ok maybe crows aren't as cute as other animals or what sort but I don't think anyone should just control it by killing them. It's just saddening okay. I don't see people complaining bout having too much money eventhough greed is by far more serious than any other problem bout having too many crows.lol. I don't know, maybe I'm just in a bitchy mood cause I lack of sleep from working. And I keep my frustrations from work and it's killing me.

Alicia

After A While.

What I've been thinking/up to recently :

1. Excited to actually shop for school supplies even though I've yet to have q purpose for it.

2. Stop producing cute items or whatnotcute stuffs! Can't resist cuteness!!!

3. Wang lee hom is such a hunk :)

4. Earning money is not easy, I know now.

5. Spending more than i can earn.

6. Been eating more ever since I started working, shit!

7. Can't wait for the lim's to come but I doubt I have time to spend much with them :(

8. Must exercise exercise!

9. Wisdoms... So true.

10. Bought a little too many cosmetics recently oops! Such a beauty junkie! :P

11. Hope I get my offer letter asap.

12. Need to spend more me time :)

13. Need to actually read the books I've bought rather than keep buying more!

14. If you ever want good service, treat the others with respect. Don't fuck with them just because you're paying, you are just someone who sat there and ate, but smile and be polite, and we promise a mighty jolly good service to be return to you. Agree, no? Then you've never receive random shits from strangers.

15. NEVER EVER judge a book by it's cover! Same applied to humans.

Alicia

Shits During Work Sucks.

NOTE TO SELF :

LEARN YOUR FUCKING MISTAKE,
AND DON'T TAKE SHITS SERIOUSLY.

Sincerely yourself,

Alicia

Endless Goodbyes.

How nice if people could just rely on something lifeless.
How would things turn out?
Would humans be contented with their feelings?
To rely on something that will never meet your expectations,
What for? When you could rely on things rather than someone.
But in order to survive we need to rely on others.
But would the others give in and flatter us?
Or would they say goodbyes and leave scars?

These feelings will never be told.

Alicia

Growing Up.

I'm scared, I'm scared of every single shit. But isn't that normal? I can't just please everybody but I just want peace. But people give faces and their true color shows. That just hits me hard. Treating others like gold but in return all you get is a slap. A slap verbally or emotionally straining your trust and kindness. So question is, this society is already screwed, and people screwing each other so how do we live?

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University intake coming, best friends going to a far place and just being hardworking ants, emotionally attached to your work and colleagues, starting to worry about your family, family gatherings which I hope would end nicely, the whole Lim clan is coming back from the UK. All these just makes me fall hard. Where do I belong and what the hell do I want? I, a millionth gazillion times said these already and able to see your face cringes at my whines but that's the fact, for now. I'm losing touch in myself lately too. Can I ever repay my parents and the money they invest for my education? Will I be able to make it? Can I ever EVER see their true happy faces?

I'm losing touch.

Losing my sanity and myself.

Alicia