Shits During Work Sucks.

NOTE TO SELF :

LEARN YOUR FUCKING MISTAKE,
AND DON'T TAKE SHITS SERIOUSLY.

Sincerely yourself,

Alicia

Endless Goodbyes.

How nice if people could just rely on something lifeless.
How would things turn out?
Would humans be contented with their feelings?
To rely on something that will never meet your expectations,
What for? When you could rely on things rather than someone.
But in order to survive we need to rely on others.
But would the others give in and flatter us?
Or would they say goodbyes and leave scars?

These feelings will never be told.

Alicia

Growing Up.

I'm scared, I'm scared of every single shit. But isn't that normal? I can't just please everybody but I just want peace. But people give faces and their true color shows. That just hits me hard. Treating others like gold but in return all you get is a slap. A slap verbally or emotionally straining your trust and kindness. So question is, this society is already screwed, and people screwing each other so how do we live?

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University intake coming, best friends going to a far place and just being hardworking ants, emotionally attached to your work and colleagues, starting to worry about your family, family gatherings which I hope would end nicely, the whole Lim clan is coming back from the UK. All these just makes me fall hard. Where do I belong and what the hell do I want? I, a millionth gazillion times said these already and able to see your face cringes at my whines but that's the fact, for now. I'm losing touch in myself lately too. Can I ever repay my parents and the money they invest for my education? Will I be able to make it? Can I ever EVER see their true happy faces?

I'm losing touch.

Losing my sanity and myself.

Alicia