The emptiness that I used to feel oh' so comfortable with has become a fear of myself. My constant empty thoughts have reminded me of how vulnerable I am. Though I appreciate the tranquil moments I'm listening to, I worry for tomorrow may be a repeat of the past. I'm trying to overcome my failures, constantly reminding myself how I've not push myself to the limit, constantly reminding myself how disappointing I am, as a human being I suppose. A soulful human being.
I need a hug, but nobody ever offered. To offer with a sincere heart, I needed it. I need to be told I'm not alone in this realm of downslope, I want to know I can go through and overcome this turbulence. A hug is all I need, I might not want it, but I know I need it.
My recent serenity and tranquilizer.
Alicia
