Distance.

Everybody calling me fat already...
Gosh. How to live..?
Binge for dinner after my HK trip :P
Grandma's cooking is definitely the best meal!
But... gosh. Cupcakes are too good to be pushed away.
I also don't feel the holiday spirit...hmmm.
Maybe it's the excessive holidays.
I feel... Empty.
And... I don't feel like interacting...

Maybe it's just me.

Alicia

Who You Are.

Seeing is deceiving,Dreaming is believing,It's okay not to be okay.♥

Alicia

Go.

Soothing.

Alicia

Me.

NOTE-TO-SELF :

HAVEN'T LEARN TO CRAWL, WANT TO WALK ALREADY.

Alicia

Phase.

Can't even take care of myself, how the fish do I even take care of others? So if people think I'm selfish, maybe it's because I can't even look after my own. Look at the way I live also know lah. I totally lose too my lazy DNA and procrastination worm in me. Believe it or not, I'm still in the process of learning and growing. Funny thing is, my parents refuse to look after me. I'm forced to look after the house because of that. HAHA. Not entirely lah, but I miss being a little kid. No need to worry about nonsense and stuff that won't help me grow and learn. But I don't want to live in a emotionless home. Only thing that keeps me in touch is taking care of my dog. Moo. Can't be stupid and naive anymore, time to look up and look forward ONLY. I hope my determination will last.

Alicia

AHAHA!

Am too lazy to make any effort already, because I can't foresee the possibility of even getting the chance.
So...why bother? Possible of vanishing.

Alicia

FAT.

Cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Nom-ed some cakes at Alexis Cafe at Bangsar.
Yums!

Alicia

Shattered.

Broke another glass.
What does it mean?
Perhaps an omen of something?
I think my mind is in the trash or something.
Can't fucking think straight.
Fucked up sorethroat with dripping mucus.
Fuck yeah!
People think I'm faking it.
Fuck YEAH!
Deceived.
FUCK YEAH!

Time to buy another glass.
Though, there's no replacement of the same one.
Wait, it seems to represent something.

Alicia

Instant Findings!

 

Great instant mash potato!
I previously tried others but this is better!

Add more hot water will not dramatically change the consistency.

If I'm not mistaken it's RM5++ for 3 sachets?

GREAT GREAT :D!

One More!

One more paper to go,
The paper I dread the most, Contemporary World!

 

YongSeo.

Okay, finally got the guts to watch the last episode of YongSeo.
I never had the balls to watch endings to be honest, but I figured, Why not?
Really, most dramas I never get to watch till the ending.
I find it painful to say goodbye to watch endings.
But yeah, watched it. Must say I'm going to miss them.
It's soooooooooo part of my life. If you get what I mean :)
I really really enjoy watching them and I usually don't post kpop stuff.
Haha! And am currently in LOVE with RUNNING MAN!
And SeoHyun is sooooooo pretty!

YongSeo Bubu! ♥
(they sooo must get together) 

Aigooo, endings.
Must kick my habits.
Must expect the endings.
It's just... everybody don't want goodbyes right?
And I guess it's normal to expect happy endings.
Oh well, It's been great.


Alicia

Real.

What's the point of being able to touch, feel, eat, move, talk, dance, walk and everything you can think of but not being able to grasp that 'real' moment? Where's the point in life anymore then? You have a house, family, friends, food and clothes but it never felt real. What's the deal then?

Alicia

Highlight of the Day!

23 OCT 2011

Awesomest birthday ever!

HIGHLIGHT OF MY BIRTHDAY :)

Had a surprise! Thanks guys!

Ate so much junk food in a week!

Great weather!

Thanks for all the birthday wishes :)

Regret not going for JAYESSLEE's concert BUT

MET THEM IN CHCKL!

Best decision ever made!

Life is complete, hearing them live and having an autograph and picture with them!

Life is good! Have H.O.P.E.!

Alicia

I Just Wanna Day Dream.

What a great song to lift your mellow mood :)"I just wanna 白日夢"

Alicia

Let Go.

Beauty Queens and their fancy,sparkling clothes

I don’t care at all~

Smiling shy from the camera clearly shows

I don’t care at all~

I’ll keep on moving onwards

Keep on moving onwards my eye set on that open door

While I keep pushing forward

Never looking back OH~

I’m never going back anymore

I just want to go , and fly to tomorrow

I don’t want to follow so I let go

I just want to go , and fly to tomorrow

I don’t want to follow so I let go

I just want to go~

Diamond ring with a red hot brand new car

I don’t care at all~

Perfect bodies held in place by push-up bras

I don’t care for it all~

I’ll keep on moving onwards

Keep on moving onwards my eye set on that open door

While I keep pushing forward

Never looking back OH~

My feet press to the sky from the floor

She let go , like falling snow

She let go , like falling snow

I just want to go , and fly to tomorrow

I don’t want to follow so I let go

I just want to go , and fly to tomorrow

I don’t want to follow so I let go

I just want to go~

She let go , like flying now

She let go , like flying now

Alicia

Desires.

Like the devils lurking from you,
Deep down it's unknown,
Unnecessary deals you'll want,
Obvious as it is, pulling you closer,
Staring down your spines,
Knowing it'll never happen,
Desires, desires,
Watching as you fall,
Where you'll be doomed as time passes.
Desires, desires.
You'll never own it.


Alicia

Unreachable.

Who is to be blamed, for tugging the strings of my heart,
The you who is perfectly sculpted with the aims as high as touching the sky,
Or me who is only watching from far still hoping for her dreams,
These strings who've been plucked,
The sound it vibrates, mellowly reaching for you,
The you who's oh-so-bright,
The you who's oh-so-perfect,
These strings which you've plucked.

Just a something I'm giving to you.

Alicia

BY2!

Haha, got bored. I really really really love BY2!

Their style totally changed from little girls to grown up ladies.

Love love them :)

Alicia

I need a break.

I'm always on break. But I need a long needed break. I just want a break.
Already 3x's I said break in the sentence there.
Shows how much I need this break. Much needed.

Maybe I'm not meant to study, I just can't man.
There's nothing interest me as much as sitting down doing nothing.
Shitzzz. Ok maybe not, but I dislike what I'm going through.
There's literally no point in studying what I'm studying.
Regret max. But I shan't waste my parent's money and give up half way, no?

Just...I know I'm not doing the best.
I need a miracle. Can someone enlighten me?
Like truly enlighten me, not with words only?
Aside that, I can't wait for November :)
I just can't freaking get over the exam and this month!
I just wanna do what I like! Which is NEVER studying. lol.

I want to grab a book and read, without any distraction. (trying)
I want to just sit and lay without worries when got quiz, assignments, blah.
I just want to cook! I'm so interested after going through many blogs.
I just want to walk around my neighborhood and just chill.
I just want to get fit, take some pictures, be inspire all the time!
I just want a freaking break.

They say, suffer now, and you won't suffer later.
Nuff said, so true but that meant not doing what I like.
More like, I'm just sooooooooooo not liking doing anything now.

How?


Alicia

Sigh Sigh The Lazy Bum.

I know I can,
BUT I'M FUCKING LAZY.
WHY? OH WHY?!
And it's a damn habit, not easy to change.
What to do? It's all in the genes lah :P

Kay, I secretly don't wanna blame the DNAs, but ah, just say it's cause of that.
Guilty lah.

I have this 2k words assignment which is due in less than 30 hours?
Damn, have I slacked. It's actually extended and I had 1 whole bloody week to do.
SCREW YOU LAZY PIG.

Currently, 11:38 PM,
Sleepy and thunders. What a great night to sleep in!
But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I have zeee 2k words.
Currently at 100+ word...blame the 'slow' genes.

*le sigh*

Alicia

Fifth.

Fifth of the month,

Loot of the day :)

Alicia

Only Me

There's only me to care & me to handle. Get that in my brain please~

Alicia

Eat.

I kind of know the reason I binge.
Yes, after this long I've figured it out.

I'm alone most of the time and I need food to accompany me.
That's a valid reason.
I eat when I'm with people and eat more without people.
When will I ever kick this lifelong habit?

It's just a matter of time.


Alicia

What...

Hmmm... What to do...

Alicia

Happiness...Where Is It?

There's always this person I want to become and the person who I hope to become. I've always think I can do it but I would think of the consequences of my action. I'm worried. I'm starting to get worried for everything. My condition is like a fucking roller coaster. I'm so tired of my current life. Everything I do is never a point. There was no meaning in my life. I honestly live for nothing while others pray to live. What is my destiny? I know destiny seems so cliche, but really, what is my destiny? Where is my stand? Where do I stand in this freakingly huge world? Do people even notice my existence? I can't seek my happiness. I just don't find happiness in myself. It could be because I'm still struggling with my issues...or just the past. I can't forget the past nor can I overcome the present. I'm just not happy with myself now... I'm not...

Alicia

Note-to-self.

  Alicia

I Can't Take This Pain.

Pure awesomeness in their album.
1 of my favorite songs. So much emotion I'm moved to tears.
I kid you not, it definitely made me teared.
And I barely like ballads but this is an exceptional.
It's mostly in english! Give it a try!

Alicia

Mummy's Birthday.

My second favorite man.

29.8.11

Love it, yet to finish.

Alicia

Silent.

Overslept, never felt this energy to stay awake despite being damn sleepy.

Alicia

Someday, I.

This song is just pure beautiful. I can relate :)
I actually think this moment is emotionally hard for me to do anything.
I'm not sure if it's just stress or depression. LOL.
Anyhow just enjoy the music.

Alicia

Calm.

Stay calm and drink tea.

♥

Alicia

What IS Different?

Don't you think being different itself is actually very difficult? 
You want to be different but you want to be blend in. 
So what makes different, DIFFERENT?

Alicia

No Actions Taken.

Hair dropping everyday. It's killing me.
Gaining weight everyday. It's KILLING me.
Stress bout assignments but no actions. IT'S BLOODY KILLING ME!


Shall have a proper post that I intended on. Adios.

Alicia

How to obtain.

Not in my right mind now. Been sleeping late like nobody's business. You know when you want happiness for yourself, do you compromise or be selfish? If you compromise you'll never be happy and if you be selfish obviously you don't want no shit to be treated back at ya. Besides knowing the truth hurts, so do you stay oblivious or fret over it? What if happiness is all in the mind? You can be happy with yourself and do what you are doing or dwell over it, over and over again. So how do I obtain basic happiness? What is happiness?

Alicia

Testing Testing.

Lalala~

Alicia