Scared.

Am bottling up my anger, scratched myself.
That's how I deal with it. Aside that,
I'm feeling slightly chilled but also stressed with the upcoming exam.
How am I suppose to deal with this?
I'm doubting myself for the exchange thingy, but I'm clearly scared.
I don't know if I should apply or not, I hate the paperworks.
But I want to go exchange. But am I worth it? sigh.

Anyhowwwwwwww, am addicted to these songs right now.

Am totatlly addicted to Dalmatian.
Scrolled through the tumblr tag of Dalmatian, made me feel much better.
I know..lol.

Alicia

Randomness at 1am.

Exams are on next week. Hardly prepared at all and wondering how did I managed the pass 12 weeks. Miracle indeed. Things I've been wondering lately, Law of Attraction. I think it's kind of true, think about it, if you keep thinking positive, positivity will come in to your life, think smart and you'll always wanna be smart. Though I've yet to read all about it, after exams, definitely will I read 'The Secret'. I'm actually randomly blogging cause I'm listening to some slick R&B beat, chinese it is. Damn, have I listen to some great beats in awhile. I need to revamp my life, in self-development of course. I don't want, but NEED to change. Actions speak louder.

Alicia

Nell - Standing in the rain.

That’s enough
Is it pain or is it shame
Whatever it is, it doesn’t matter
We would always stand within that,
and the time would just flow along
And there’s no one here to blame

Sincerity is always so powerless
Crumbling away like the sand and
spraying out like the waves
And you just can’t stop the rain

Whether you wanted it to or not,
someday it falls
And we would stand in it again
And when you’re standing in the rain

There is very little we can do
Our heart would wet,
along with the rain.

Alicia

Never like you.

You broke my wings.
You definitely broke my shell.
You gave up in me.
And how the hell do you expect myself to have hope?
YOU gave up on me.
I'll never forget that YOU decided on this.
I'm not the forgiving type either.
But you definitely gave up on this.
I don't want to be you, no.
It's the stupidest fight ever, but you showed how ugly I can be.
You showed how exactly you wanted to be.
I never want to be that. Just remember,
I'm different after this.
You changed me. You gave up on me.
You brought the ugly side of me. So how can I be near you anymore?

I never gave up, you told me you gave up. You did.

Alicia

STRESS.

I want to be content,
I need to be content.
I'm too young to give up on myself.
Too young and too early.
CML, please work hard and do everything u can.
You have to chase what you want.
Nothing will fall from the sky miraculously.

Alicia

最爱的花。

Sometimes I think I'm well absorbed/adapted to things or people.
When I see a fish, I feel like I can be and act like a fish.
When I see a nice photo taken, I feel like I too can take one.
When people seems younger than me, I tend to act like I'm older and responsible.
When I drive, I feel like a F1 driver.
When I see sky, I want to feel light and thus I want to be.
When I hear a sad song, I feel sad, and vice versa.
When I see a bunch of flower, I feel like immersing myself with flowers.
Can I be a flower too? Just so in love with flowers.
The beauty of it can't be explained by me.
It's just a beauty that should be appreciated by people and not by words only.

Flowers oh flowers. How I wish to be you.
Growing beautifully yet delicate and kind.
Can I be one? :)

♥

Alicia

YEAR 2012 :)

Update : YES! I've finally successfully retrieved this post that I've accidentally! Awesome meee! Don't give up easily! Haha!

Decided I should do a New Year Resolution for the year 2012.

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1. Be healthier, and fitter.

This has always and will be my lifetime goal. I can't emphasize how much I strive to be fitter yet in a healthier way. This is definitely my number 1 on the list. Must at least exercise 2-3 times a week.


2. Be independent.

I WANT TO BE INDEPENDENT! To prepare myself to be a better adult for next year (21 y/o). Agree, no? I definitely want to do more things by myself like grocery, shopping, movie, errands, etc... I totally SUCK at being independent. Living in my own world.


3. Read more books.

This is definitely a way to improve myself and to upgrade myself in a better way. No doubt reading will improve one selves. At least 1 book a month. Not too bad, eh?


4. Earn my own money.

Been slacking for this semester break. HAH! What else could I have done, though I haven't used up my part time job salary. Thus, I need to earn more and get my dream house (lifelong aspiration)!


5. Improve myself.

Clean a little more, be a little less lazier (nobody's perfect thus, there's always a lazy worm in everyone.haha!), maybe get a new hobby or interest?, have yet to decorate my room! I have all these little ideas on how to decorate but am too lazy and lack of creativity. And I need to improve my vocabulary and common sense and etc.

6. Get used to Uni life.

I need to get used to the whole 'I'm in a university' mode. Side note, I must be a university student-like. Or not how am I suppose to graduate? Need to soooooooo get used to the study motion. Need to constantly revise too!


7. Be positive and be grateful.

I think I need a list of things I'm grateful of and I need to think positively. Because, not thinking positively takes you no where. More like, take you down physically and emotionally.

Alicia

HK - Part 1 (Day 1).

 

Plane ride with the queen mother! MAS was actually good! We had a Magnum Classic Ice Cream which was awesomely heavenly tasty! My meal was surprisingly yummy too! What to do during plane ride? CAMWHORE. DUH!

Portrait shot of mother.

These Korean girls totally made me smile! :) They were so friendly to pose for us while both buses stopped at the traffic. Friendly people definitely have a great smile to suit them.

HK taxi's are EXACTLY the same in TVB DRAMAS.

Air in the city is really bad.

While waiting for the 'Symphony of Lights'

Freezing because of the sea breeze.

Mannings in HK is our Guardian pharmacy in KL.

Delish! Original HK fritters!

 These dessert is so DELICIOUS that my mum had to go back every single night from our trip just to eat their dessert. It's a very small shop by the street with a stretch of tables and people queuing up for midnight dessert. One bowl is roughly HK$16 - $18, equilavent to RM 6.5 - RM 7.2. Not bad for a original 'tong sui'.

That's the end of Day 1.

Alicia